Struggling

Some days I can find a spot in my brain to tuck away all the emotional bullshit. Today is not that day.

Last night I had a dream that my girl was dead. I don’t know how she died, where she died or any other specifics. I just knew she was gone forever. I was in a car with my mom, an aunt and my grandmother who passed recently. They were all bad mouthing my girl and saying horrible things. I was so upset and I couldn’t get them to listen to me or hear me when I tried to explain that she was a beautiful and wonderful person who was afflicted with a horrible mental illness.

I am exhausted today. Drained and depleted of any and all positive or happy emotions.

Author: howdoilifeweb

Late 40's, wife, mom, daughter, sister, friend.

One thought on “Struggling”

  1. Thinking of you and “your girl”…always. After seeing her for the first time in a very long time, I feel your pain. We are here for you. Please don’t forget that.

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